I have had a terrible month. I have been sick for most of it. And not just a little bit sick. Multiple trips to the doctor sick. I have spent the majority of my time off either quarantined in my room or just in there because I didn't feel good enough to do anything else.
I was transferred very suddenly (two days notice) at work to a different salon in the Grand Rapids area. Longer commute. Lateral transfer.
My car pulls to the right when I let go of the steering wheel. I don't know why. I've been ignoring it because I don't want to find out that it's expensive.
My roommate(s are/)is moving to Texas in October. I'm envious of her adventurous spirit, and I am going to miss the crap out of her. I don't want to find a new roommate. I hate most people.
I let the dishes pile up on my turn again...
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I have had a fantastic month. I've lost weight because I'm never hungry from being sick so much, but hey, get it where you can. Also, being sick introduced me to both New Girl, which successfully pushed Zooey "tandem bike-riding, ukulele-playing, manic-pixie-dream-girl" Deschanel off my shit-list and back onto my tolerable in the correct context list, and The League, which made me kind of wish I understood football a little bit better, but not enough to even Wikipedia it, because mostly I'm too busy thinking about how big my crush on Mark Duplass and Jon Lajoie is.
I needed a change. I was starting to stagnate, and it was driving me nuts. My job went through a sudden and unexpected upheaval, and it was jarring, to be sure, but I feel like I'm making progress again. I think I'm on a better track toward finding what's right for me. And now that I'm moving, it's easier to keep that momentum up.
My left arm is getting really strong from holding my steering wheel a little left of center all the time.
More change is on the horizon, but I have a feeling that if I just remember to lean into it, things will work themselves out. I do envy Rachel and Ryan and their new search for fulfillment, because I will miss them, but that said, they are inspiring me to find my own enrichment.
And it's all around. It's just in the way I look at it.
