Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Here For Now

So, I'm trying this new approach to life lately, wherein I don't think too hard about things that make me happy; I just let them do what they're doing.  As a lifelong, chronic over-thinker, this has not been a simple matter of flipping a switch in my brain to the 'off' position.  In fact, I am constantly struggling against my natural tendency to psychoanalyze my every choice and action.  I realized something a while back, though.  I have self-sabotaged a large number of seemingly happy experiences in my life by breaking them to see how they worked.  I would spend the whole time wondering what it all meant, so consumed by a hypothetical outcome that ultimately, all I would do was forgot to enjoy what was good about the present.

And the thing is, when I finally started making a concerted effort to just enjoy the here and now, I started realizing that things are pretty great right here, right now.  In fact, I'm the happiest I've been in a long time.  Yes, I am 26 years old, and I don't have anything close to a ten year plan.  I'd be lying if I said I have a solid six month plan.  All I know is that today, I am glad that my life is where it is.

So here's a list of stuff that makes me happy:

1. Mexican food.

2. Fall.

3. Muppets (except for the ones with heavy eyebrows and beaks, because they freak me out).

4. Brand new stationary and a really good pen.

5. This picture of a manatee chasing an ice cream cone.


6. Dresses.

7. THIS THING BECAUSE OH MY GOD.

It's called a quokka.  I KNOW.

8. Halloween is just over a month away!

9. New pajamas.

10. This song.